Assigned Writing #1 Final paper

Judy Zityniuk 
Final Draft



Dear…


There must be a certain way of doing this. A way I know your familiar with. A way I know every normal girl is familiar with. I don’t want to write your name, I rather it feel like I am talking to myself. For some reason its easier for me, perhaps maybe because I am the “weird” girl. Talking to yourself is much easier then letting someone else know how you feel. When I was little I fell off the monkey bars and hurt my wrist. I kept wrapping my wrist in duck tape over and over again, I put ice on it everyday until it hurt so bad I had to tell my Dad. He screamed at me for not telling him how bad I was feeling and the look of bewilderment on his face can still be seen clearly in my mind. I was oblivious walking into your arms because it was new to me. I was smart from the beginning though. I was cautious the entire time where I never really believed you. My walls were made up of bricks that would never tumble down for anyone. Was it a game or was it true? I never really knew but I thought you did, I knew you did, and I think you still do at times. You have feelings for me. You have told me numerous times you like me but it didn’t feel real, they felt like words to me. Words that you blurted out of your mouth as our relationship progressed, words you thought would make things right. I never told you though. Instead I told you things that should have made you vanish from my life as soon as you entered it. Yet, you kept chasing after me, always trying to get my attention. Walking in the same path I was where you would almost bump into me if I hadn’t looked up and noticed you. I had you in the palm of my hand. I was the trickster and I always played games with you, leading you into a kiss and then pulling away laughing. Telling you things I really did not mean. Then you left, exactly what I wanted.

There has to be a way of telling you this, a trick, a skill I can learn or a technique where it’s simple to let it all out. Let you know how I really felt about you. The words you had spoken to me, the complements you had fed me had caught me onto you hook and you reeled me in. You were on my mind everyday after we completely stopped talking to each other. Every single day. Love songs that played on the radio I would shut off because they reminded me of you. The pain in their voices when they sang of how it all hurts I understand now. These words I can only speak in my head, they cannot come out of my mouth. They sit there in my mind, lingering and trying to find their way out. I cant and I am glad I kept them inside trapped.



School was finally over for the year and summertime was beautiful. I completely erased you and I went down the shore. I spent most of my summer on the beach. The ocean was amazing everyday. The sun shinned in the bright blue sky; the loud excited screams of children filled the background that rang along with the sound of the crashing waves in my ears. I never had one thought about you at all. My best friend Lea and I worked on the boardwalk at a pizza shop. She was the person who got me the job there. We were paid nine dollars an hour, which was great for me. I loved waitressing down there where everyone walked in with a bright smile. They all just came from the beach where they would still have wet sand on their feet. I wore a white shirt and black pants with a red apron in the middle, it was a weird uniform they made us wear but I didn’t mind.
One night, it rained so hard we barely had any customers. There was a hurricane in the ocean and a pretty bad one, so we were told to close up early. Lea had long black hair that laid all the way down to her butt. That hair would become a huge frizz ball once the rain touched it. She asked me to start bringing the gate down so her hair wouldn’t get all messed up. This was this night I saw you. I was busy trying to close the restaurant so I had my back turned to you when you asked me if you could buy just one lice of pizza. I turned around and we just stared. Unknowing of what to say or what to do. “I was just closing now” but…, I told you. You were with your friend and two girls. Before I could answer you cut me off saying okay. Then I watched you walk away laughing with everyone. I could easily make the assumption that everyone had a date, including you. You see I fail to make you realize how mean you were to me in this letter. There is no point to complain to you, I think I would rather just let everything go now, but what is so questionable is what could have we been when everything was a big misunderstanding? We both loved each other but we couldn’t tell because we were both stubborn at the wrong times. Your still on my mind at times and I wonder if I ever still come across your mind as well.

Final Draft Feburary 6, 2012

Judy Zityniuk
Ms. Bavaro Final Draft
1/24/12
Shocker
The scent just hit me, it smelled like death and sickness and I felt a cold chill freeze my body. When I woke up I did not know where I was and it took me long time to understand what happened. I looked around in a panic, examining all the machines I was attached to. A slow beeping sound rang in my ear over and over again. I was on a hospital bed in a room by myself. I woke up moving all the wires attached to my chest. There was a green wire attached under my skin, I saw it in my wrist. Red and white wires were attached to my heart too. I was so confused and I did not know what happened to me. I remember thinking in my head “what the hell, what is this place? Where the hell am I?” I panicked and started to tear the wires off of me. The place did not even look like a hospital, for all I know, some man could have kidnapped me and attached me to these machines. I could not get the wires off and the harder I tried, the louder the machines beeped. The machine beeped faster and louder and it made me more nervous. I tried to run but there were wires underneath my skin and I could not get out. I started to look around and I saw white curtains with red stains on them and I did not want to know what laid behind them. I was just concentrated on getting the hell out of this place. No one was there, no doctors, no strangers, no people, no animals; I was just stuck in this room alone. The whole situation just reminded me of a saw movie where a clown would pop up on the TV and tell me how long I have to live. I did not know how to get out, where to run or even who to run from, I froze and I felt like I could not move. I kept telling myself, “relax Lisa, we will get out of this just relax.” The room was so cold, almost as if I was supposed to be dead and they were freezing my body. It was like I was outside in the snow without any cloths on, shivering in the cold. Then suddenly came a light that shinned so bright, it almost blinded me. This light was not a your normal light that helps you see. It shinned as a white light almost as if you were about to see angels come walking out of it. I just stared at it while sitting up in bed and after awhile I started to crawl towards the light, I didn’t get off the bed though. Suddenly, I was able to get the wires off of my body. I was able to move my legs and walk over to the light. I took the wires off of me and I got out of bed and started walking baby steps towards the light. I noticed I only had a gown on. Someone changed me out of my normal cloths. I don’t remember anything that happened and everything was so weird. How could I not remember what happened to me? At each step, my feet felt like they were stepping on ice because the ground was so cold. Yet, each step closer to the light the ground suddenly became warm and gave me a comforting, relaxing feeling through my whole body. Every step I took closer to the light, the more I felt better. I started to relax and I was not scared. I just concentrated on finding out what this light was and wondering if it could get me out of here. I finally was very close to the light, even though the light was only 5 steps away; it took me a half an hour to walk there because I hesitated so much. I started to put my hand towards the light. I was so scared I turned my head away, closed my eyes and put my hand into the light. It was quiet and nothing happened so I turned around and looked. SLAP! Something was pulling me into the light and whatever it was; it made a loud smacking noise trying to take me. I started to scream, push, kick and cry until I blacked out. Then a sudden shock hit my body and it felt like someone picked me up and threw me across the room. I opened my eyes only to find myself back on the hospital bed except this time doctors were surrounding me. Everything was blurry but I could see and hear that the doctors were yelling and screaming at each other. “HOW COULD YOU MAKE THIS MISTAKE, YOU ALMOST LET HER DIE!” You should have seen that she still had a pulse and was alive. Then he looked at me, it had to be the most scariest stare I ever seen. He leaned over and looked into my eyes with his black dark eyes, checking to see if I was awake. My eyes were open and so he started talking to me. “You are okay, you were in a accident.” He told me, now they started moving my bed into another room. We moved out of a cold, chilly room into a nice warm room and they covered me with blankets. I don’t think the doctor noticed I was awake when he was yelling at the other doctor so he left out what really happened to me. I found out what really happened once I got out of the hospital. I was in a car crash, he didn’t lie but what he left out was that they put under an unnecessary surgery where it seemed like the surgery failed and I died. The doctors failed to realize that I was actually still alive; everything was paralyzed except my brain. I was not dead but I had no idea what was happening on the outside because on the inside I was dreaming, dreaming of my death coming to me.
My parents were notified immediately when I had crashed and rushed to the hospital. They got a terrifying phone call from a police man saying that their daughter had been in a car crash and is critical condition. I can only imagine the paleness that overcame their face when they heard the news. After hours in the waiting room, the doctors came out and told my parents that I was in a coma. I was in a coma for about a month before the doctors told my parents that I most likely would not make it. I was told my mother fell to the ground and cried while my father hugged her and wiped his eyes. My sister ran to my hospital room and just stared at me. I was in another world and I had no idea. After talking with the doctors, they agreed to donate my body for my organs. Yet, I was still alive when they thought I was dead. It was when they took away my life support that I think I started to see the light in my dream. After taking me off lie support, one doctor noticed that I was twitching. My finger was moving and then my other fingers moved as well. My eyes were closed but he put his stethoscope against my chest and heard a slight heartbeat. Get her back on the life support I hear her breathing he yelled. After putting me back on the life support again that was when I felt the sudden shock. I opened my eyes and this is when I saw al the doctors yelling. I almost died but it was the doctors fault, at least I think it was just a blessed miracle.